A Different Path

After 10 years we finally have extended our family to just beyond Jason and I. It was not a usual pathway for most people, but hey, we have been blessed with a very sweet spirit. I will admit that I was hard pressed by the normal expectations of how everyone is suppose to expand their family....so much so that I am guilty of being selfish. These determined wants of becoming a mother "the normal expected way" became such a priority to me for a time.....that it probably prevented me with attaching to Emily when she was initially placed in our home...and because Emily was our foster daughter....I didn't know whether or not she would someday be eligible to be adopted. So my feelings were essentially very guarded at that time.
But NOW..................
It has been so much of a RELIEF ever since we signed papers to petition Emily's adoption.....and since we legally adopted her. She feels like she is my own. After being sealed to our daughter Emily eternally last night, I knew that she was meant for us. I'm so relieved that the hole in my heart for wanting children is starting to heal. Our lives have changed so much...we are definitely blessed.