In preparation for the adoption process, we have to have our home "ready for children". Part of the requirements is to have a place for a baby to sleep. So thus, we had to get our nursery done. This was an emotional morning for me. (Yes....I did shed some tears) Part of me feels this emptiness due to my two miscarriages....I should be excited to put up nursery furniture up, yet I feel I don't want to get connected because we are still in process with the whole adoption thing (which can take time). I guess I want the certainty that we will have a child placed in our home....and I will feel better. For now, I can probably just stick a stuffed animal in a crib. Maybe I can request to have one of those octoplets in our home....Anyway....we have to plug away with the process...and continue to be "patient". I can't dwell on the fact that I'm not pregnant, and although there is always a time for miracles, I feel that sometimes life doesn't always turn out the way they planned. There is hope though, and I have fully accepted whatever plan the lord has for us.....because it really is in his hands. I remember part of the 13 article of faith in which it states we follow the admonition of Paul: We believe all things, we hope all things, we have endured many things, and hope to be able to endure all things. If there is anything virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we seek after these things.
