Ma-Mah

It's interesting with time....there is usually never enough....or the opposite: Things take too long. I'm just pondering this thought because it seems when you experience these polar opposites at the same time, it becomes emotionally taxing. For instance...I'm racing against my biological clock. Unfortunately, my biological clock is sort of broken so my chances are reduced. There is still hope there but it's a long shot. I guess if I stuck to the biological route of hoping, I doubt I would have ever be called a mom this soon in the game. At the same time... It's been a long time....to be able to be called referred to as a mom...and to Actually hear those words be directed at Me....It is VERY surreal. We have our foster daughter...and she is growing so fast...it's incredible....sometimes it's not fair to see her grow this fast. At the same time, it feels like it's taking too long to fully comprehend the feeling of "motherhood"....because of the required time it takes the system to have her legally be our daughter. What a roller coaster ride. When she woke up this morning, I was cooking her little pancakes for breakfast. Just as she was rounding the corner into he kitchen, I heard her little voice saying "Ma Mah Ma Mah Ma Mah". Wow. It's been too long...it's been too long shedding tears to actually comprehend such a touching moment. I'm a mom. Yes.... I am a Mom.